Attempting to make new friends four years after ECT, four of us, I being the new member of the group, went skiing and snowshoeing up to a remote backcountry hut. Say if your life is like a movie unfolded, you get to see the entire movie, I get less than a trailer’s worth of memories of my life. Go get ECT, get a lobotomy, a head injury, some way to lose all your memories, and then you can truly live in the moment.