She didn't know I had no money, had never changed a diaper, or that her father had abandoned them. Broken hearts, I didn't know how to fix, so I just made grilled cheese and let them cry on the couch. At the time, I told myself they'd read it someday or they wouldn't, and either way I'd said what needed saying. I don't know if you'll ever read this, and I don't know if I'll still be doing this right by then, but I wanted to write it down, anyway." I don't know how to be a father, but I know I'm not going anywhere."