Rather than pretending tragedy somehow became understandable, Autumn allows herself to admit that some pain simply cannot be explained this side of eternity. “Until I get to heaven, I’ll never understand why this happened,” she said. That’s what I’m doing, and that’s what I’m trying to do, and I hope I make them proud in the process.” “So that was really, really sweet,” she said, reflecting on the timing. Truly without Him and the people that He has placed in my life, that’s really the only way that I have been able to keep going.”