Both the prosecution and her defense attorney read pages from her journal Monday as she chronicled those difficult months. Lindsay Clancy remains paralyzed from the waist down because of the fall. In the hospital two days later, when a forensic psychologist asked Clancy how she felt, she responded: “horrified.” He needed a ventilator at Boston Children’s Hospital to help him breathe, but did have a heartbeat. If convicted of murder, Lindsay Clancy faces life in prison without parole.