You feel so sorry for everybody out there, but when I see Jake, I see little Jake, you know?” Kalush said. “When he came back from Utah, he was a completely different person,” Kalush said. When the news started to spread of Sunday’s mass church killing, Kalush was playing a recreational hockey game. I don’t know what they’re gonna do, and I don’t know what you do,” Kalush said. I mean, I don’t know how you come back from this.