We were exhausted and spent the entire car ride talking about how excited we were to go to bed. But I just insisted I wanted to watch TV and hold our son. "I remember feeling so confused by my behaviour, but I just stubbornly stood my ground and insisted that I wanted to hold him. I still don't know why I listened to my random and nonsensical urge to watch TV — I blame the sleep deprivation. Listen to your instincts, even when your husband (and even yourself) are completely confused, and nothing makes sense."