“My ex was my neighbor, and so were all my friends, so that breakup was a big rift in my life. Even if masking pain with humor was a tried and true tradition — “instead of depressed, I’ll say I’m depronky” — the emerging indie songwriter’s behavioral health became a battlefield in the wake of loss. “I just kept saying ‘Fuck it, I’mma spiral,’ and that meant I was getting loaded. I was having panic attacks, popping Xanax and doing a bunch of crazy shit to feel leveled out,” they say. I was using things as a crutch.”The spiral wasn’t entirely new territory for Jaime.