"This has been the hardest 2 years of my life, and I have no one to blame for my current reality and situation but myself." Combs then references his attack on ex-girlfriend Cassie Ventura, an incident that was captured by cameras at the InterContinental Hotel in Century City, Los Angeles hotel in 2016. "The scene and images of me assaulting Cassie play over and over in my head daily," Combs says in his letter. I was dead wrong for putting my hands on the woman that I loved. My domestic violence will always be a heavy burden that I will have to forever carry."