Picking Up the Pieces“Since her incarceration, we have been able to have open and honest conversations about her gender identity and how that evolved,” Roske’s mother told the judge. Friends told the judge that Roske began embracing “nihilistic worldviews” and questioning his evangelical upbringing. Nicholas Roske was using the name "Sophie42#6535" on Discord as early as 2022, per court filings. On June 8, 2022, Roske placed a 911 call, telling the dispatcher he was standing on the corner outside Kavanaugh’s home with a firearm and planned to kill himself. “I had become so focused on the effects policy has on people that I forgot the judges and politicians making policy are real people, too,” Roske told the judge.