Madonna and Jay Shetty, ‘On Purpose with Jay Shetty’ (Ricardo Gomes)During her first-ever podcast interview, Madonna revealed that she contemplated taking her own life, but her spiritual practice helped her work through it. Appearing on Jay Shetty‘s On Purpose podcast, Madonna discusses her study of Kabbalah, which is a form of Jewish mysticism, and how she never could have dealt with certain challenges without it. “There were moments in my life where … I actually contemplated suicide,” she tells Shetty. '”Asked what challenge caused her to feel that way, Madonna reveals, “One of the most painful moments in my life where I could, I honestly couldn’t see the forest for the trees, was when I went through a custody battle with my son. “I was on tour at the time, so I had to go on stage every night,” Madonna recalled.