Madonna has revealed she contemplated suicide during her 'painful' custody battle over her son Rocco Ritchie, and at times it left her 'sobbing in her dressing room.' 'There were moments in my life I wanted to cut my arms off… I actually contemplated suicide,' she said. Madonna has revealed she contemplated suicide during her 'painful' custody battle over her son Rocco Ritchie , and at times it left her 'sobbing in her dressing room''I would say probably one of the most painful moments in my life where I honestly couldn't see the forest for the trees was when I went through a custody battle with my son. So, you know, thank God I had a spiritual life.' 'Success is having a spiritual life, period.