“Look, man,” I said, “depression is sweeping me away and I can’t allow it to defeat me right now. Another aid I allow myself is taking magnesium, for example—something I learned from psychologists and nutritionists online. At that point, yoga, walks, the practice of Ho’oponopono (repetition of mantras such as Emerald green, Key of light, or Thank you Thank you Thank you, said constantly in the mind), prayers, and meditations no longer suffice. So then I ask my aunt for three pills that calm me down quite a bit: benadrine with Alprazolam and Mirtazapine. With them, I feel my head soften, everything slows down, and I usually take them so I can sleep well.